My personal Testimony!
I was raised in a small town called Taunton, Mass. after having moved from Ellsworth Maine where I was born, where to this day, I do not know who my real mother and father were.
But because I know of the Sovereignty of God I know his personal care of my life.
I can go on with my life knowing his plans have my best interest at heart.
In his plan, I was adopted at birth by a very loving couple who were childless and really wanted me, my mother was a backsliding Baptist and my Father was an agnostic when it came to all things spiritual, but was hard working and level headed person.
Now you have to realize that I only found out about my adoption at 29; long after both my mom and my dad had died and I had already become a Christian. I received a letter from the social security administration telling me of a Sister who wished to get in touch with me.
My Sister told me that my real mom ( A full blooded native American Indian, of which I am proud to have in my bloodline.) wanted an abortion because she could not care for me and all my siblings, a fact I’m not proud of!
(But I know now that this act is the ultimate rejection of a child in the womb, not an act of love but selfishness.)
She was actually at the doors of the clinic when some pro-life people talked her into adoption instead of murdering me, thank God for those who will stand up and stand out in this world for something good; if they had not, I would be among the millions a dead babies in a dumpster somewhere in Maine.
I think you know where I stand on abortion as a result of this.
No amount of arguments can convince someone who would have died that a child in the womb is not human enough to live.
I was raised in a lower middle class family and not used to the so-called “good things in life” as far as wealth is concerned but I was very much loved and that’s what really mattered anyway.
all that was soon to change because of an utterly stupid decision of mine. I began to practice the occult in my teen years; and it all started one afternoon when I was 6 years old sitting in front of the “boob tube” watching an innocent television show called “Bewitched” and from the moment that show aired [in 1964] I was hooked on the concept at least; of witchcraft, very innocently at first but nevertheless I was hooked.
The “Craft” appealed to me on so many level’s both physically and spiritually. I was already an introvert with very few friends and low self esteem in school, other than the few out -casts smoking dope in the parking lot of my school. And being an only child caused me to develop many “imaginary friends”.
Now I believe this is Healthy to a point, but as I grew up these “imaginary friends” would drive my interest in the Occult and Drugs, for they were demonic in nature not the “imaginary friends” I thought they were. Since my interest was peaked by these “familiar spirits”.
[A familiar is a Witches guide in the realm of spirit.]
I now know that these spirits were guiding me into deeper and deeper FLESHLY TIES to my sinful nature.] Watching that show sent me headlong into a downward spiral of flesh in control living.
I dedicated myself without any spiritual direction to find out about this ancient earth religion, as I began studying and looking for deeper truths in the world of magic and sorcery I was witness both to its beauty of focus and its pure savagery of intent. It wasn’t until after my adopted Mom died when I was only 17 that I was free to do as I pleased….and boy did I do as I pleased!
I jumped headlong into drugs, Drinking, and Partying while trying to keep up a c+ to b average in high school, failing many courses because a lack of focus on them and because many of my teachers just wanted me out of their classes and passed me through without the proper training.
I joined Wicca, as a private practitioner taking a course in the art of magic by Gavin and Yvonne Frost; The Wicca fascination I had did not last very long as I was hungry for a darker side; the more power and knowledge of the occult the better.
I began to delve deeper and deeper into the so-called “Deep things of Occult Knowledge”, I would read Anton LaVeys “Satanic Bible” just to rebel against the God who, I felt “TOOK MY MOM FROM ME!!”
Now this is where I now know a true Atheist from a fake one who is just a rebellious person trying to hate the God he knows exists but can’t get close too in sin.
Understand that if you were a real Atheist, you wouldn’t have a need to rebel against anything godly because after all….He really isn’t really there…..I mean get down to earth, if God is not there what’s the issue with the bible; “the concept of God is the ONLY thing that could make that book real in any way, so if God isn’t real then the bible cannot matter.”
This is why I’ve never really meet a real Atheist because you all WASTE so much time trying to find evidence to DISPROVE what you say isn’t there…is that healthy behavior?
After all I as a Christian don’t get mad and spend any of my time trying to disprove the existence of “Fairy Tales” why do you?
I began mixing in Aleister Crowley’s works The Man, Myth, and Magic encyclopedia series was a great source of knowledge from my High School Library on class breaks.
But Just about anything dealing with works on Witchcraft I would give place to simply because I was hungry for knowledge. PLEASE do NOT EVER UNDERESTIMATE A CHILD’S SEARCH FOR KNOWLEDGE! They will circumvent all efforts to stop them if all you do is say “Because I said so!” instead of explaining with evidence WHY they can’t do it!
The occult became an obsession, a lifestyle that I was hooked on just like my drug use, it was “Mind-altering”. I learned still more from friends, many of which were Questionable at best but they knew what I wanted to know about how to tell fortunes and use Tarot cards and playing cards to make money on the side.
I began to cast spells on others, while I worshiped the horned god and the goddess. I mixed all this knowledge together to form my own form of the Craft, never being a conformist I made it my own and would put it all in my journal called a “Witches Book of Shadows”.
The Book of Shadows is a Witch’s greatest tool. It provides a place for all personal Craft secrets, your spell work, rituals, family traditions if you have any, almost anything a Witch can think or act on is contained in this book.
As I figured out what my personal practices were I would write them in this journal. This was my personal “bible” to turn to, anytime I needed help with a spell or spiritual concept, its ancient name is called a “Grimoire”.
I soon found out that when I would cast spells of evil intent on those I hated or disliked it began to work and I would also work “good magic” on those I liked that worked also.
Everything seemed to be going my way. But the problems I was going through at this time in life had nothing to do with what happened to me in the daytime hours when I worshipped other gods and goddesses; or even my study time in the craft when I gained deeper knowledge and power as a black witch.
My real trouble was a night time issue, an issue of fear and discontent both in my dreams and waking hours. I was in a constant deeply seated fear at the height of my power as a witch.
And no matter what anyone tells you about the Craft; good intent or bad intent it will produce the same results that any lifestyle outside of God’s grace produces, and that is DEATH IN YOUR LIFE.
Here is a COMMON excuse by those without knowledge of the Dangers of ALL FORMS of Witchcraft:
…”The Harry Potter books present a Godless universe — one in which the most powerful wizard wins,”And that “most powerful wizard wins” thing differs from evangelical christianity exactly how?
(Here they speak of Religion being different from Witchcraft and they would be very wrong as God hates false religion just as much, but the point is well taken- there are powerful “Wizards” of religion in all of man’s inventions.
God must be the most powerful being in your life, PERIOD!
NO EXCEPTION IS ALLOWED!!
Sceptics of the Christian faith say things like this:
“And if you want your children to read only the bible, go right ahead. You’ll end up having children who don’t read unless they’re forced to, and who don’t like to read. Kids need to enjoy reading in order to learn how to do it well, and that is what seems to get missed every time this topic comes up and reading is important when it comes to getting an education, especially a college one.”
This is THE most stupid remark from ignorance I’ve ever heard, they assume that to get an education means to sacrifice a child’s soul in the process.
The Bible is THE most important book ever written NOT because its religious dogma, FAR FROM IT…The bible teaches children about every facet of life they could ever hope to encounter outside of “Religious training”!
Can a child ENJOY reading what they want?
YES… but always balance that skill with good MORAL TEACHINGS so that when they read something your not there to see, you’ll know their perspective is right!
Deut. 7:26 says:
“Do not bring a detestable thing into your house or you, like it, will be set apart for destruction. Utterly abhor and detest it, for it is set apart for destruction.”
Lev. 20:27; 19:26 the second part of the verse says:
“A man or woman who is a medium or spiritist (wizard KJV) among you must be put to death. You are to stone them; their blood will be on their own heads. Do not practise divination or sorcery.”
Lev. 20:6 says:
“I will set my face against the person who turns to mediums and spiritists (wizards KJV) to prostitute himself by following them, and I will cut him off from his people.”
Is. 47:13-14 says clearly:
” Let your astrologers come forward, those stargazers who make predictions month by month, let them save you from what is coming upon you. Surely they are like stubble; the fire will burn them up. They cannot even save themselves from the power of the flame.”
” I am a Christian now and I’m proud of it, but I’m NOT RELIGIOUS and will not fit willingly into a denominational mold. I mean let’s be real here-Religion has killed and maimed it’s share of truth at the alter of good intention JUST as atheism has murdered it’s share FREE THOUGHT in the name of Fake science.
Let’s face real facts here for once shall we?
Both religion AND HUMMANISM have dropped the ball as far as getting it God’s way and we have a very short time to get it right!
A personal relationship is what God requires, he’s never been interested in “Church-ianity” or any form of man-made silliness on our part.
It’s about YOU and God, and not about YOU FITTING INTO A MOLD of like minded minds which most of the church is now doing.
I was born in Ellsworth Maine in 1959 in the month of June and started out as a normal boy, as many before me..but that was soon to change when I came into my teen years. As a young boy of a Baptist mother and an Agnostic Father (What a Mix?) I was an introvert with few friends of any real character and was raised an only child, As I grew up, my interest in the Occult and drugs became clearly evident.
My first introduction to the occult was from a famous T.V. show called “Bewitched” when I was only 6 yrs old, from that first show my interest was peaked and I went on a downward spiral from there..as a child I knew that “Hollywood Witchcraft” was not real but I desired to know about the real thing and dedicated myself to find out about this ancient wisdom of earth religion.I began studying and looking for deeper truths in the darkness of this MOST ANCIENT world of magic and sorcery!
It was after my adopted Mom (The only real mom I ever knew, which I loved with all my heart.) died when I was only 17 that I was free to do as I pleased….and boy did I do as I pleased!
Drug use, Drinking, and Partying was my only thought while keeping a c+ to b average in high school (A miracle in itself) I soon found out about Wicca and became a card carrying mail order Witch, taking a course in the art of magic by Gavin & Yvonne Frost; which did not satisfy my LUST for the ultimate power.
I was hungry for more and more power and knowledge of the occult than even they were willing to share.
I began to delve deeper and deeper into the so-called “Deep things” of Occult Knowledge READING Anton LaVeys “Satanic Bible” which fueled my fleshly desires even more.
I also studied Aleister Crowley’s works on magic.
You see, the most dangerous form of the craft is the mixed up crazy kind I invented for my self.
I studied on lunch breaks in the library at school (Reading Man,Myth,and Magic encyclopedias and other works on Witchcraft ) and on all my free time when I wasn’t partying and abusing myself otherwise..the occult became an obsession with me!
I learned even more from friends (Questionable Friends at best) about how to tell fortunes and use the Tarot to make money from unsuspecting people, and learn I did..casting spells and worshiping the goddess. I mixed all my Occult knowledge together to form my own “Witches Book of Shadows”
(A Book Of Shadows is a Witch’s Greatest tool. It provides a place for Craft secrets, spell work, rituals, family traditions, otherworldly info. )
As I progressed through the Craft & figured out what my personal practices were, so I needed a place to write my thoughts down!
This book became my “Bible” I would turn to it anytime I needed help, my “Grimoire”or “Book of Shadows was my only friend and I worshiped it’s contents as my own creation, when I cast spells on those I hated it worked,things were going my way…..
Who had other plans for me..he and he alone had the nerve to put two Christians into my life that could not be SCARED OR MOVED by my appearance or actions and kept coming day after day,night after night inviting me to church (No GUTS No GLORY)..they never gave up on me!
I remember giving them the SLIP so many times I lost count.
But one fateful Wednesday night Bible Study I sat at the BACK of the this little Church of God in Cheyenne Wyoming, half Drunk and half High.
I don’t remember much of the service BUT I do remember hearing that God did not hate me for what I’d done but that His law required judgment on my soul,God’s Love reached out and touched this Witch and suffered him NOT to live a life without hope but revived him into New Life in Christ!
I saw a literal Light of deliverance shine down into my mind and for the first time in years I could think for myself without the “VOICES OF DEMONS (My Familiars)”interfering with my thoughts,that night became as “DAYTIME for me and now I am a new creation,OLD things HAVE PASSED AWAY and Jesus is my Lord and Savior FOREVER!
Of course there will be those who think “Well, that’s you..you were special to God and he loved you more than me..I’ve done to many sick things for God to love me!”
That would be a big mistake to believe!
God loves all mankind equally and without being partial to any one…
God thinks as much of you as he does of his own son..just give him your heart and he’ll do the rest!
As a minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ I extend this invitation to know him as I do now, get free and stay free it’s your personal choice and no ones business but yours alone.
Accept what God has done on your behalf in his Son’s death and Resurrection.
Nature in the Christian view (as compared to our non-Christian worldviews such as witchcraft) is that nature is no longer an object of fear and worship, because let’s face it…we only “worship in ignorance” what we “Fear in ignorance”. God on the other hand only demands knowledgable faith.
It is “False Religion” that MYSTIFIES GOD to the point that you can’t relate to him BUT blindly follow precepts and dogmas that make little sense to the soul of man!
We need to do a self-check, to make sure we get rid of all of our idols, good luck charms, crosses, medallions, and demonic symbols. We must repent fully of trusting in fate, the stars, destiny, and luck: and put our whole trust in the Living Christ, follow Him wholeheartedly without exception to our fears from the past.
Trusting in fate or luck is clearly a dependence upon evil spirits which I knew as “familiars.”
Of course there are those who will think “Well, that’s you, you were special to God and he loved you then more than me now, I’ve done too many sick and unforgivable things for God to love me!”
That would be a major mistake on your part!
God loves all mankind equally and without being partial to any one. It is Satan, the master of the half-truth that tells us these lies because he hates man.
It is only because he lost it all that he wants YOU to suffer for his stupidity by following his path. Don’t let him lie to you, God thinks as much of you as he does of his own son. Just give him your heart and he’ll do the rest!
If God is God then He should be able to accomplish anything no matter what it may be..right?
Well I’m here to tell you that JESUS CHRIST is God and he can and will save you no MATTER WHAT YOU’VE DONE…he looks past what you do and love’s you deeply.